Hello once again, it is I, IgbarX. I think this might be goodbye. I can't seem to play on JR anymore. I can't help it, but, after losing admin permission, I felt like I had lost my whole life. It was my life, those hours I spent, those bragging rights I had, all lost down the drain. It reminds me of the old days; no one cared for being staff, no one would TRY and earn it, or devote their whole life on JR for it. If you got promoted, it was like, "Whoa, dude, great job. You get to slap people and get god mode and stuff." Life was great back then. If only I could go back to those times, when being JR was a meaning in life. When I could goof around, not a care in the world. But industry got in the way. "More members!" We cried. If someone was banned, it was a big deal. It was a tight knit community, where everyone pretty much knew everyone. But now, only 1% of people who first join actually stay and do stuff. And only 1% of those get staff. So, really important thing here; DO NOT TRY TO EARN STAFF. IT WAS NOT MADE TO MAKE YOU FEEL SPECIAL; IT WAS FOR THOSE WHO TRULY DESERVE IT. For the the time I have been staff, one big problem that I HATED were people giving me sob stories about, "Being here for so long! I deserve staff! I've worked for it my whole life!" Think about. JR was not made to give you a job you DO NOT deserve; it was made for playing MC with friends. And right now, I feel like I've lost all my friends. They're banned; they left; they don't have time; I feel alone. The only reason to come on at all is to work. Nothing but work. Not even pay work; (which should not change at any rate); just volunteer work, that I'm not cut out for. In truth, I'm too young for a real working job.
Now, I know we've been trying to keep our members and everything; but it's those STUPID IDIOTS of society who ruin it. For example: First day tekkit server came out, it was amazing. But, SOME people gotta go and ruin it for everything! Pretty much ANYTHING in tekkit that helps with mining is banned. I mean, it's called MINEcraft. You just took away half the reason people play tekkit. Also, with the pvp server, well, that attracted the wrong kind of people. Pretty much everyone who is there is a huge noob who calls everyone a hacker because they suck too much at MC to kill anyone.
Long story short; I'm leaving. I've lost reason. I'm depressed. I'm not in a good place in life right now, and well, being on JR enough is too much. I might log in now and then, might say something or other on the forums, but I won't be doing as much stuff anymore. I don't deserve my position, and most of all I don't deserve to be taking up a space in staff that someone else MIGHT be able to use. I really wanted to stay, but I simply can't. Also, I know I've said this MANY times before, but, this time, I MEAN IT. I need to be demoted. I'm serious. Not demoted to helper, not to gold, but to citizen. I DO NOT deserve mod, and I guess I don't deserve admin either.
This is Iggy,
Signing out for good.